More Stepping....

Yesterday afternoon by the pool with my husband and children, I pulled out my Stepping Heavenward book and began to read. It's my hope to finish it today. I was caught off guard by words written in precious Katy's journal as it related to the death of her young son.
In the beginning weeks of our cave in last year I'd stumbled (not by accident) across a passage in Psalms 39. Psalm 39:8-9 reads; Deliver me from all my transgressions; Do not make me the reproach of the foolish. I was mute (silent, unable to speak), I did not open my mouth, Because it was You who did it.

This is the passage from Katy's journal I read yesterday : page 282 top "My dear Ernest has felt this sorrow to his heart's core. But he has not for one moment questioned the goodness or the love of our Father in thus taking from us the child who promised to be our greatest earthly joy. Our consent to God's will has drawn us together very closely; together we bear the yoke in our youth, together we pray and sing praises in the very midst of our tears. I was dumb with silence, because Thou didst it. (Ps 39:9)"

I just couldn't believe how honoring Katy's journal was towards her earthly husband and her heavenly Father. I also found myself so very grateful for the same kind of earthly husband as Katy had in her dear Ernest. John and I have cried, prayed and searched the scriptures and council of many as we've walked this cave in and subsequent rebuilding efforts.
Once again, in this set of circumstances, we are seeking God's leading because we are silenced. Circumstances appear very grave for our son right now. We also, in order to continue to rebuild our home may be forced into some of the hardest decisions we've ever had to make. I am so grateful for people in our lives who have loved us and prayed for us. Would you continue to do so?

As illness continued to plague Katy after her son's death, she found solace in her Bible and quiet time with the Lord which was quite extensive in her sick room. Katy continues to write of her charcter formations during such trials. It gives me such hope to know that in the midst of our most difficult times, God is shaping us, using us for His Kingdom and purposes. I'll close this up with Ps 39:12 Hear my prayer O Lord, And give ear to my cry; Do not be silent at my tears, for I am not a stranger to You....